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Monday, March 17, 2008
Monday, March 17, 2008
dear, decided to jot something here because i feel that's more privacy here than my blog.
sorry for being unreasonable, always making a fuss esp when u worked for very long hours. in fact, everytime i want to express my deepest concern to u, it'll end up with those shitty attitude of mine.
do u really think that im tat unreasonable?
do u really think that im angry?
sometimes, i'll make a passing comment serious. i dunno why i did that to make myself angry. i trust you and yet i act as if i dun. and everytime i forgive you, i still act as if i dun.
those tears was there for a reason. im angry with myself why am i so stupid to always find fault with u whereby the problem lies with me. i couldnt understand why i did all those stupid things, i think probably i want more attention from u other than ur work. maybe u'll fork out some of ur time to talk to me and ensure that im no longer unhappy.
hope that this 12 hr shift of work everyday will end soon. i miss waiting for u to end work, talk on the phone and head to bed. it probably wont happen if i ever find a job.
i hope u'll always remember that i love you and i didnt meant to hurt u. our road is always full of obstacles and we had been through all tat together. i'll nv let u go, will u?
go die.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
haiz
a happy day turned out otherwise.
it seems like my fault,
yeah well my fault.
maybe you can try putting yourself in my shoes,
maybe you'll know how i feel.
you said you didnt give me attitude,
that was after you kept quiet.
what about before that?
of course today's important to me.
it always is.
yet,
this thing had to happen.
i know i'm a failure.
you ask me where to go and i said dont know and u go disappointed.
everytime its i dont understand you COS YOU DIDNT TELL ME ANYTHING.
i hate to guess.
its tiring.
why dont you put yourself in my shoe for 1 day,
maybe you'll understand more about me.
haiz sorry.
go die.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
sometimes i just feel that i am nothing to u,
u can treat me like shit.
thanks.
yet i cant say anything about it.
go die.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Sunday, November 11, 2007
everything will be over
our love isnt so vulnerable
and can overcome whatever hurdle that may come along
go die.
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Saturday, November 10, 2007
sometimes, i think that it's not me that do not love u as much anymore.
because u no longer make the effort to meet me or send me home like wat u did last time.
sometimes, i feel that im no longer important and u no longer cherish and appreciate me.
messages are like so minimum nowadays.
and it's this difference that's killing me.
but i always seems to be unreasonable or not understanding.
this time round.
i decided to swallow it.
maybe u will do something abt it.
maybe u will think tat im unreasonable again.
why worry if u really treasure me.
i hate heartbreaks.
i love u alot.
pls dun take my love for u for granted.
im not angry.
i dun want to wash my face with tears.
go die.
Thursday, November 08, 2007
Thursday, November 08, 2007
7am in the morning.
would you believe i had a sleepless night?
it doesnt feels good to slp every 15mins only to wake up in fright.
the fact that u could probably leave me one day is killing me.
i love you so much.
i'm willing to do anything for u.
ANYTHING.
my request isnt big,
i just hope u'll be more understanding though u've already gone beyond your understanding limits.
disappointment again and again.
all cos of me.
would you leave me one day?
'promises are meant to be broken'
i dont want this sentence to happen to me.
i told u many times,
what should i do to show how much i love u?
u said nvm.
but do u really know how much u matter to me?
u dont know.
u know,
1 mistake made can and would destroy all the past happiness.
people only remember the faults.
good things can be easily overwrote and deleted.
it sucks to make mistake.
2-3days of stranger-treatment.
it doesnt feel good.
i know i'm overboard sometimes.
but quarrels will nv happen,
if you could put urself in my shoe.
maybe u already did,
maybe u cant stand it,
or maybe i'm not the guy for u afterall.
it breaks my heart to see u unhappy.
your love can cheer me up in any situation,
yet thats the least thing i'm getting whenever i need it the most.
i'm so afraid of losing you,
i'm useless,
sorry.
exhaustion's slowing creeping into my head.
yet getting to slp is so hard.
pls dont ever treat me like a stranger anymore,
u dont like it when i do the same thing.
it is so difficult to be harsh to u,
but yet it seems so easy for u to be harsh on me.
maybe u dont love me as much anymore.
or maybe,
i'm no longer the one u once treasure.
the deeper a commitment,
the more hurtful it is when things happen.
the more the devotion,
the more disappointment u get.
i cant stop commitment now.
its impossible.
i love u too much.
love u so much,
so you know?
how important u're to me,
so you know?
u hurt me so deeply,
so you know?
u broke my heart once and once again,
do you know?
just cant feel your love sometimes,
so you know?
you wouldnt believe what i said above,
cos i've made u lose trust in me.
guys do need consoling and comforting.
there are points of time where they wanna be concerned for and care for.
there are points of time where guys are weak,
this is when they need their the one they love most to support them.
i cant lose u,
sorry.
i broke your heart again.
go die.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
我还是那么的爱你，但心最近好痛。
你可以谅解我的蛮不讲理吗？
对不起
希望这一切不会在发生。
对你而言，可能不重要。
但对我，好重要。
你对我很重要。
知道吗?
不想再掉眼泪了
go die.
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
same mistake again.
i dont know what to do or say anything anymore,
nor will it makes a difference to u,
at least for now.
online yet no guts to online.
how am i supposed to face u.
sorry.
pls hate me.
if this is the end,pls hate me. you'd enough of me.sorry.
go die.
