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Friday, April 29, 2005
Friday, April 29, 2005

ok i was reading through my tagboard..notice that my frenz dun approve of me smoking..

haiz..

guys i will stop..i promise to u all ok?

anyway..woke up at 10am today..wahahaha~

finally i am waking up early..haiz later still got work..sianz..

dun feel like working anymore..doing the same old stupid stuffs again and again, scolding ppl here and there and acting as if i am so strict that some ppl r so afraid even to tok to me..serving those fucked up customers and having to smile at them as if they are god or whoever..

and having to face those stupid morons who cant even do a simple task i tell them to do..wtf?simply wasting my time teaching them..

haiz forget it..no use getting fucked up over tis thing...

anyway..was sad seeing kirk and clar becoming like that..haiz..arguing in blogs..

ok i dun noe whether they will b reading tis, but was really so surprise y they became like that..they were such good buddies during sec sch..playing wif each other, telling each other their problems and more..they were closer to each other than the rest of the LJB group..so close that some even thought they were gays or something like that..

but now..

haiz..

arguing in blogs..like so wtf? wat for argue until like that rite..if not happy meet out and tok it out..not happy wan fight also can..although not good, but at least it is better than arguing in blogs and letting the misunderstanding go deeper and deeper..

why did they become like that i dun really noe the reason behind it..but..wat big reason can make 2 close friends become like that..haiz..

getting a little too emotional huh? lolx..

anyway..hope their relationship will improve 1 day..

go die.

Thursday, April 28, 2005
Thursday, April 28, 2005

woke up at 12.00pm today..wahahaha was so happy that i am finally getting up earlier..(12pm good achievement for me liao lah)

anyway..yesterday went to work at 2pm..then when working receive a msg from Kirby...

-.-

TO KIRBY :

so sorry lah kirk..i noe i broke my promise to u..but..u hav to try and understand me leh..haiz..anyway i admit its all my fault i shouldnt hav started smoking in the first place..i noe u r so angry wif me cos u care for me and my health all tis..i understand how u r feeling..so..i decided for ur sake..

FROM TODAY ONWARDS I SWEAR I WILL NV TOUCH THAT HARMFUL 'STICK' AGAIN

ok?

anyway..1 more thing..

i am wondering if there is any1 reading my blog..and if theres any1..can pls tag?so that i noe who will b reading k?

shall end here..

go die.

Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Tuesday, April 26, 2005

haiz..

nothing to do..so here i am blogging..

play some games just now but got sick of it..and of all the time my com's speaker hav to spoil now..wan listen to music also canot..

today can be said to b my rotting day..

no sms..no phonecall..no songs..no ppl to chat wif..no tis no that..

FUCK

just rotting at home doing nothing..i would rather do homework now~
=X

forget it dun say le..toking abt homework makes me feel even more sick..anyway..so rare i had time to rot at home..abt 1-2 wks more then sch start already..so sianz sia tinking abt going to sch and studying again..

i hav already got so used to not studying and slacking all the time..how to cope wif the 'new' changes?having to get up early..listening to lectures..having to see the teacher's same old face everyday..and when u get home u hav to worry abt projects or group work or watsoever..and this carries on for 3 yrs
>.<

anyway..lets try to look on the bright side..

erm..

nothing which i can tink of except girls..
lolx..

shall end here..ciao...

go die.

ok was reading through my posts and found it lame..so decided to stop posting those lame posts..

wtf am i saying?

ok nvm...

got up at 1.15pm today..was god damn tired..couldnt even get up when my mum woke me up..in the end end up being scolded by my mum in bed..zzzz..

went to work after that..was late for half an hour but nv kena scold..lol..

heng~~

anyway..during break went to eat and smoke wif my fren.. woo hoo~

long time no smoke le..feeling is simply so shiok~

just hope that kirk will not b reading tis post..or else sure tio fuck by him..lol..

anyway..dun really find smoking bad or wat..just dun understand y some ppl hate smoking so much..wats wrong wif it? if smoking is really that bad then y doesnt the government ban it? dun u guys tink so?

ok the consequences is true..like lung cancer..heart problem..blah blah blah~~

but tink from other angle..if ppl dun get these diseases or problems..then wat do doctors do?they can just jolly well close down their clinics and slp at home..

but i really dun wish to get these problems/diseases..lolx..

haiz...

alot ppl keep asking me quit smoking..well tis is to those who ask me to quit:
u guys tink i dun wanna quit?i noe smoking is bad for health bad for everything..but there is sooooo many temptations..everywhere u go u see ppl puffing on 'sticks' which are said to b harmful..dont they noe smoking is bad?they of course do..but y do they continue?cos they canot stand the temptation..some ppl may say ' if u wan to control nothing can move u ' wtf?and i am definitely not in tis category..and almost all of the smokers are not..now understand y i cant quit?

haiz..

but i swear to all my frens out there that i will quit soon..ok?happy?

good...

anyway..knock off at 10.30pm..reach home at 11.30pm..ate supper..and here i am blogging...

shall end here.....

SIANZ

go die.

Sunday, April 24, 2005
Sunday, April 24, 2005

haiz...

woke up at 11.45am today again..receive a call from my boss to call me go work -.-

wtf?

i already told them i will not be and canot work today..and they call me to go work? stupid rite?

Why are people always like that?

when u help them..they nv even take notice of u and would not say even a simple "Thanks"

then when u r not there, they start to see that they need ur help and start calling u or sms u like as if their wife is going to give birth..if u refuse to help, they will tink u r an SELFISH ASSHOLE

where got such things?

haiz~~~

anyway..past few days hav been working more than resting..so tired sia~!

luckily my sch is starting soon..so sianz of working, looking at the same old thing..

Sianz!!!!!!!!!

ok shall tok abt wat happen yesterday when i was going to work few days ago..so funny~~

ok a few days ago..which i tink is around 6.30am..i was at tanah merah waiting for bus 24 which was taking soooo long..

Then~~~~

there was tis woman who was sitting down..and there was a malay woman sitting next to her..everything was so peaceful..

Then It Started....

the woman starting toking to the malay woman in CHINESE?!

well i didnt really take notice of her..so did not heard wat she was saying (it was something abt a Pink comb)

ok my bus 24 came..And She Board Also -.-

the bus was damn crowded..so she and i stood at the entrance..

Then She Stood In Front Of The Rear Mirror And Started Combing Her Hair

-.-

And the comb was PINK

spooky?

and the poor bus driver was so pathetic, keep looking at the surroundings trying to avoid looking at her -.-

i cant stand it..so i moved in and stood near to the exit (for easy escape ah? lolx..)

the woman move in a little too..and stood next to an old man..

he was looking so peaceful..sitting down dozing away..

And The Woman Started Toking To The Old Man

and i finally heard wat she was saying, " They say the Pink comb should not b used. The Orange comb should b used instead." (At tis point of time she took out her Pink comb and showed it to the old man)Then she suddenly got very angry and scolded the old man..lolx... "Who r they to say that to me?I raise them up and they like that tok to me?"

haiz..

The old man POOR THING sia..

lolx..

wat makes it even worse is...

when the old man was abt to alight..the woman actually FOLLOWED the old man..

haiz~~

Wonder How's The Old Man Doing?? lolx..

go die.

Saturday, April 23, 2005
Saturday, April 23, 2005

ok got up quite early today......at 11.30am -.-

early meh?lolx..

anyway its already an achievement for me already..cos i wake up at 2 pm everytime..lolx..

haiz..sch starting soon liao..have to get use to getting up early or else sure die..warning letter or watsoever will be sent to me..

BuT~~~

i have so gotten use to waking up so late for the past 4-5months..

How To Wake Up EARLY??????

haiz..

but i need would time for the bio-clock in me to get use to the new sch schedule..

hope i can succeed~

any encouragement from any1?lolx...
:X

go die.

Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Wednesday, April 20, 2005

haiz..its another boring day at home..

WHY I HAVEN GET WELL??

so damn irritating to keep coughing like u hav got TB and so fed up that my nose have been blocked cos of my stupid flu....

aAaArRRrgGgGhHHhh~~~~

ok finish venting my anger lol..but i am still feeling soooo terrible~!~!
haiz..

anyway..no mood to blog anymore..

go die.

since i am soooooooo free now..so might as well post something..

was reminded by a guy called LU PEILIANG(sorry for mentioning ur name -.-) abt my sec sch life..so might as well write something abt it..

ok sec sch life...once upon a time..when i just stepped into..lol..better dun too long winded..

6 months hav pass without me even hav to worry abt :

1)Long hair
2)Long fingernails
3)Punctuality
4)Using of handphone
5)Scolding of vulgarities
6)Having to sit in the hall and doing silent reading(thats really so stupid) , etc..

wahaAhaHa~

really pity those ppl out there who still need to worry abt late..detention..hair..sideburns blah blah blah..

I FEEL SO FREE~~~~

ok better dun get too worked up...wahahahaha~~~

but of course there are things which i will nv forget..like my dear LJBS

but seems like every1 is drifting further and further away from each other..do they remember all the crap we hav done?cutting botak, laughing and teasing people, our indecisiveness, our straight-forwardness, and much much more...

seems like they hav forgotten abt everything..

BUT......

wats wrong wif forgetting it on the other hand..rite?we hav to move on in life..we cant stop at a point and say ' i am not going to move on anymore' is tis wat u call life?

every step we move forward is a new beginning to our life, a new chapter of our life, and at the end of the day, when u look back at ur chapters, u would not feel that u hav wasted ur life..but rather..

You Have Live Life To The FullesT~~~

izzit it wat everybody wans at the end of the day?

ok side-tracking a little too far...but to where i was saying lol -.-

i miss the Teachers..they were our mums and dads in sch..coaching us whenever wherever they can..helping us as though we were their child..doing their best to help us no matter how we the students make them angry and irritated..

Where On Earth Can You Find Such Good Teachers??

haiz..hope when go poly can find such nice teachers also~~ (which is impossible)

And the Best Class Award goes to...

SEC4A OF 2004~~~~

We were the best class wif the motto We Dont Study History But We Create History

WahAhaHahAha~~~~~

act hor?

well not i choose 1....lolx

anyway..that was really the best class i hav ever been to..arrogant(which was wat our teachers said)..loads and loads of trouble for the teachers to handle..haha..but our 'O' level results were so nice~~ (so ah teachers u all dun look down on us hor)

haiz..still so many things haven tok abt u noe...lolx..

But i should stop for now..

go die.

Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Tuesday, April 19, 2005

yo~ today finally is the long waited off day~

wahahAhahA~~

but haiz..stay at home also nothing to do..staring at the com and msn-ing the whole day like an idiot..

anyway..

feel so sick sia..keep coughing and sneezing...y do cough always come wif fever and flu?? like fuck rite everytime u get cough confirm fever and flu..thats so FUCK man..

go die.

hi every1~~ well i was getting bored nowadays..so decided to set up a blog since i was so free..

And i succeeded~

even i myself was shock that i could actually create a blog cos i thought that i could nv do it (well mayb i should not look down on myself -.-)

anyway tis blog is created just for fun..so mayb i wun even update tis blog

wahahahaha~~

but still hope got ppl support tis blog lah arbo i will very sianz 1..ok cya...

go die.