POSTS
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
are you ignoring me deliberately?
rejecting my call,
staring at me with the pissed-off look,
turning off your phone which you never did
since u dont even give a shit abt me,
then dont expect me to do anything more for you
i have my pride,
my face,
my own emotions,
my limits
if you dont give a damn abt wats happening to me,
why should i be EXPECTED to call you and console you
why should i get my pride and feelings hurt,
remember that you do not have the right to do that
cos its ME not u i am toking abt
if u think u are the queen of the world,
pls understand that there are more than just u in this world.
fuck
go die.
Monday, July 25, 2005
Monday, July 25, 2005
updating again. sort of finding blogging a chore nowadays. zzz. anyway i am here again.
sick again. ZZZ. thx to work. mayb didnt hav enough slp. all kinds of reason here and there. suk lah.
why is that happening to me again.
why are u treating me like shit again.
am i someone who u can treat as substitute only?
do you really detest me so much?
why do u always give me false hope?
why do u treat as if u like me sometimes?
do i look like an idiot who u can come to and go as u wish?
why cant u just spare a bloody thought for me?
i want you to be happy
i wanna see the soothing smile on your face
even if it takes my whole lifetime to do it,
i will
please,
treat me like a human
i have feelings and thought too
i know i cannot be compared to your ex
give me a chance,
i am trying my very best to give in,
just kindly show some love for me
if u think u can lie to me,
think again,
i'm not that naive
please dun think u can lie to me
go die.
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
haven been updating for 5 days.
-.-"
got really busy tis few days. let me tok abt some things.
first- work. been working for the past few days during the holidays. and it resulted in a lack of slp for me. wtf man. anyway, i slept enough during the sunday.
2nd- my retest. will be getting my retest finally next week. though it was said to be damn difficult, but i would rather fail borderline than getting a big fat zero. 1 more good news, that is i did not fail any subject for my term test. weeeeee~ =X
3rd- loads of assignments waiting for me to work on and yet i am here blogging. zzz. getting more and more lazy. nvm doesnt matter. guess i gonna chiong finish everything by deadline. hope i can do it. lol
shall stop here. ciao
go die.
Friday, July 15, 2005
Friday, July 15, 2005
its only 12am and i am feeling sleepy. wtf
anyway ytd work was just crap. felt so sleepy and tired. argh dun wanna tok abt it anymore. slept at 9am today and woke up at 5pm. and i am feeling so tired now. zzz. sound like a bloody gay ah. fuck.
life just suk as usual. yes here i am complaining again.
wanted to go slp but couldnt. gonna lose control over my eyelids. guess they are going to shut damn tight soon.
gotta slack the rest of my holidays at home again. ciao
go die.
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
dun noe wat to blog. sianzzzzzz
gotta work at 10pm later. yes 10pm till next morning. no choice cos of money. i need money urgently. zzz.
some1 came to borrow money from me again. do i look rich? pls use ur brain and think. if i am rich wat for i go work rite. knn. argh forget it. fuck
anyway went for dota ytd. it was just shiok. lol.
go die.
Sunday, July 10, 2005
Sunday, July 10, 2005
halo ppl~
=X
actually i was supposed to wake up damn fucking early today. but. lol i skip the bloody walk. lame to the max alright. zzz.
supposed to reach the stupid place at 7.15am. ZZZ. if i were to go i had to wake up that damn bloody early. so izzit a big thing to run wif the president?so wat if the blackie is there to run wif us. wat right he has to deprive us of our precious slp. stupid blackie. knn
lol
anyway i didnt go for the walk. so doesnt matter anyway. lol
go die.
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Thursday, July 07, 2005
today went for my oc term test. haiz was so worried abt missing the test again and it result in a loss of slp for me ytd night. zzzz. anyway, the paper was not bad. found it tedious to do the test cos it was so long
-.-
anyway, pls gif me a 40 and above for my test. guess theres no more hope for my retaking of the paper i missed. pls let me score well for my other subjects. i need it. or else i would struggle through my sem exam. zzz. y is tis shit thing happening to me.
read through clar blog. wtf sia clar. blog abt me. knn. lol.
a series of unlucky things hav been happening to me recently. one after another. zzz.
like today. got woke up by a loud noise, which i later realised it was my mum and dad quarreling. over something which was damn fucking serious alright. dun wanna tok abt it here. zzz
no mood to blog anymore. bye
go die.
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
am i cursed or wat?so many unlucky things happen to me recently. and today is the worst.
FUCK I ACTUALLY MISSED MY ENGINEERING MATHS TERM TEST. AND WHEN PEOPLE ARE DOING THEIR TEST I WAS STILL IN MY DREAMLAND. THE PAPER WAS SUPPOSED TO START AT 9 AND END AT 11. FUCK MYSELF I ACTUALLY WENT TO SCHOOL AT 11.
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZFUCKand i stupidly ask my frens y they went to sch so early. KNN. WAT A FOOL I AM. CHEE BYE
hope i can get a retest alright.
went to get an MC from a clinic. zzz wasted my 20 bucks. AND FUCKING HELL PLS LET ME GET MY RETEST. PLS. the 20 bucks would not go to waste if i had my retest. PLS. I NEED MY RETEST. I DUN WANNA GET ZERO.
pls
i
wan
my
retest
.
go die.
Monday, July 04, 2005
Monday, July 04, 2005
went for my first term test today. well not bad, at least it wasnt too difficult. hope i can get over 40marks. =X but seems not very possible, cos of too many careless mistake i made. zzz.
tml is csas day. haiz wonder y they hav to include such a lame and hypocite test. forget it dun wanna tok much abt it.
good luck to me tml. i dun wanna fail anything. i dun wanna take the yr1 subjects when all of my classmates and frens are taking the yr2 subjects. imagine i hav to study the same thing from the basics again. just suk alright. so i am gonna work hard.
bye
go die.
Friday, July 01, 2005
Friday, July 01, 2005
there was a guy i knew since the day he was born. he had attitude problem and is proud and arrogant as he had heard his teachers saying that.
on a particular thursday, he had to wake up early to go to sch for his make-up tutorial at 9am. and which is only 1hr tutorial. wat really pissed him off is that after 10am he had to wait till 1pm for his next lecture.
when he reached the bedok interchange at 8.30am, he saw that the bus 69 queue was so long that when he boarded the bus he was standing at the steps of the entrance till he reached tp. so damn unlucky he thought. zzz
after the tutorial, he went to hav breakfast then proceed to library where he still had 2.5hrs to go. after sitting for abt 15mins his friends all fell asleep on the sofa. he was the only one who could not go to slp and he played his fren engage for abt 1hr. he suddenly felt so sleepy and decided to try to go to slp but he still couldnt.
and there he was, stupidly wasted 3hrs of precious slping time. stupidly playing some games when his frens were all in their dreamland. zzz.
anyway he went for lecture and felt sleepy again. but he couldnt slp. and he went on for 5hrs dozing off in between.
at last it was the long waited time to go home. he took 69 to tamp inter where he changed to bus 38. at last he could sit down and rest for at least 30mins. his eyes felt so heavy and he slept in the bus. while he was in his sweet dreamland, he felt a tremble which woke him up. well, he woke up only to see the fucked up face of the bus driver staring into his eyes. tis was when he discovered he had slept all the way from tamp inter to bedok inter, which means he had missed his stop.
-.-"
anyway he took 38 again, but he didnt dared to even close his eyes for 1s, afraid that he might take all the way to tamp inter again. finally, he arrived home at 8pm instead of 7pm.
guess u should noe who is he ah?
me lah!
zzzz
anyway, woke up so early today AGAIN. zzz. went to lecture blah blah blah..then something happen during csas lesson.
the new teacher came in. ok lah she was not bad but a little bitchy though. lol. anyway, she was toking abt the writing journal and she wanted us to rewrite the whole thing. zzzz. long story to explain. but the worst has yet to come.
got a little fucked up with her. and yes i argued with her as usual. then got so damn fucking pissed off by her that i scolded her 'fuck you'.
-.-!
didnt noe y i could b so daring as to scold her, but i just knew that i was damn fucking pissed off by her till i lose control over myself. well she heard the 'f word' as she said. and i was made to stand for the rest of the 1hr 30min. LOL. after lesson she said some crap which i just simply ignored through 'yes' and 'no' .
she just suk. just fuck off bitch. zzz
tml is my study day. no online no slacking. gonna study hard for my term test and prove the teachers wrong. i am gonna get A for my subjects. i am definitele going to. fuck.
stop here liao. ciao
go die.
