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Sunday, May 27, 2007
Sunday, May 27, 2007
i'm aching physically and mentally.
physically cos of work.
today was a terrible day,
really terrible.
my shoulder aches so much.
damn.
mentally,
dont know.
it feels so weird.
saying doesnt matter would be lying to myself.
but,
well,
doesnt matter.
the only thing that matters,
is you're happy.
nothing else matters =)
thats including me.
selfishness it's creeping into my mind. damn.
go die.
Friday, May 25, 2007
Friday, May 25, 2007
stupid mistake again.
i didnt prove to u what i said again,
that you're my priority
it was supposed to be a happy day
had been looking forward
yet
i spoilt the mood.
i made us unhappy for the whole day.
its the first time i've seen another side of you,
the angry you.
you can ignore me for 3hrs,
not even a word was spoken.
just wondering,
how could you do that.
its such an impossible task for me
i can never ever do it.
never ever in my life dont know whether i should say this,
i hope you dont see this.
but,
i'm feeling
abit
weird.
its like u dont care about my feelings at all.
sorry if i've hurt you or accused you,
its just how i feel,
sometimes.
not everytime.
yeah i admit,
i'm never good at consoling,
thats why i'm so scared of making you angry.
yet,
time and time again,
i repeat the same mistake.
what you said is so right,
that,
it doesnt make a difference at all whether u say it or not.
i'm not blaming you
i find it so right,
so correct.
maybe,
maybe,
maybe,
i should just,
stop forcing answers out of you.
maybe i should just,
hide how i feel.
so that you wouldnt get pissed off.
so that i'm not so irritating.
i shouldnt demand so much from you,
maybe its time for me to change,
to accommodate you.
and not you be the one to accommodate me.
and i'm not taking out enough time for u,
again.
i hate work,
yet i have to.
my precious,i still love you so much,u still matter the most to me.我不知道如何告诉你,可是,我真的真的好爱你.我仍然相信永远,因为,永远代表着你和我.
go die.
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Saturday, May 19, 2007
end of cptc training
no more early mornings and zombie days
at least for the coming 3 weeks.
wonder what i'll get for attachment
hope it'll be as good as yours
sorry i'm thinking too much again.
cant helped it at all
i'm proud of u
yet
i'm ashamed of myself
wonder if i'm a disgrace to u
===================
financial crisis now
need jobs.
anyone got lobang pls call me at 90261734.
urgent.
thx.
go die.
