POSTS
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
just finish doing my csas journal again. having to write those hypocritical stuffs again. argh nvm forget it. dun wanna say abt it anymore. fuck it
yes i am, complaining again abt everything under the sun. school, studies, people, money, everything.
zzzz
term test is coming next week. and fuck it i am still online blogging and wasting my time away rather than spending time on my studies. anyway i hav already prepared myself for fail in every subject. yes i am gonna fail all. i mean ALL alright? zzz. how am i suppose to pass when i can only do 1 out of 4 qns in my tutorial.
FUCK STUDIES UPSIDE DOWN CAN NABEI CHEE BYE
fuck
i am suppose to be in sch having lecture now. but here i am at home slacking and complaining. i dun wanna carry on my life in this way. i wanna be one of those hardworking fuckers who does nothing but study all day and all the time. i wanna be one of those who carry books around and read them wherever i go.
possible?
i dun think so. fuck the useless me.
accidentally came upon a song today. and the lyrics goes.. 'so sad..so sad..' yes. so sad. so sad that my life's in a mess. just like a room with paper,clothes over the place. everything is in a mess. nobody's coming to help me to clean up the room. everyone just walking past the room and giving those 'eeek' face when they saw how messy the room is. and pretending they did not see anything and walked on. leaving only me to clear up the mess i created.
i am at a loss at how to clear up. dun noe where and how to start. dun even noe why the fuck its so messy in the 1st place. i am just on the verge of giving up. dun wanna clear up anymore. so wat if the room gets messier. so be it. cant be bothered to clear up or even clean a little. so wat if 1 day the room goes beyond hope. just set the room on fire and everything's gone. no more worries after that.
zzzz
given up on struggling. i am just gonna let myself rot.
go die.
