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Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
i really miss you
i'm on the brink of breaking down
seems that i cant tolerate it anymore
so many freaking days passed without your news
kept myself busy working
because i dont wanna think about you
i seriously thought i've succeeded
but i didnt
kept myself busy in front of the computer today
yet my mind is all about you
from the day we first met to now
so many things have happened
you wouldnt remember it at all
because i am just a spare tyre in your heart
sorry if i've hurt you with those sms
i was left with no other choice
but to hurt you
i'm sorry
every word in the sms wasnt what i wanted you to know
but i cant tell you
because
there's already a 'him' in your life
i dont ever want to be a third party
as long as you are happy
i dun mind if god take 1year of my life away
even if its 10 years
i am still willing to give it up
i just want to see that smile on your face
but now
not to even mention that smile
i haven been able to see you for so many days
trying to look for your familiar figure in the crowd
even hoping to let us meet so coincidentally on the bus
all dreams
all wishes
all hopes
dashed...
so much wanted to contact you
but my finger never obeyed me
the 'send' button always seem so hard to press
i understand the fact that we could never be friends anymorre
yet i am still hoping for the day
the day when miracle happens
how i wished for a big big cry from the bottom of my heart
how i wished i could just cry till i drop dead
thought of jumping down buildings more and more often
is depression slowly creeping into my head?
go die.
