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Sunday, September 04, 2005
Sunday, September 04, 2005
monday is the start of exam, finally the long awaited day has arrived. spend my whole studying week going through piles of notes and exam papers. studying suck alright. zzzz
have you tried having to concentrate on doing something else when actually your heart is at somewhere else,
thinking about another person,
wondering what she are doing,
whether she's thinking about you,
guessing what she's doing with no guts to call her,
cracking your head to find a topic to sms her,
and when failure dawn upon you,
you think of lots of excuses to cover up for your cowardice,
even hoped that your phone would spoil for no reason,
so that you have a valid reason to make up for your futile effort.
on top of that you are trying to concentrate on doing that something else,
and with all those adversity in your mind,
you would rather you never have to be caught in such a dilemma
even if you are able to summon the courage to call or sms her,
it doesnt make any difference,
you dont feel delighted even it means hearing her voice,
it makes you feel even more terrible when you hear her monotone voice,
and after a few sms u realised she just stopped replying,
after that,
you can forget about doing anything else
all you wanna do is to have an injection to make you numb,
to make you immune to any feelings
you tried umpteen times to force yourself to forget her even for a pathetic 1 minute,
success never appear to be on your side,
seems like life is making a joke out of you,
you know there's no way for you to get her out of your mind,
yet you carried on lying to yourself,
that you would forget her one day,
even when you know that would be impossible
how stupid can you really be,
you would never know,
until the day when you forget her completely,
you regret wasting your time on her,
you feel like a complete moron
before that day arrives
imagine how much pain and torture you have to go through
fuck all the crap i have written
go die.
